Male 25 years old virgin with anxiety. Please i need advice.

Hello reddit! So this is my first post on this site and I'm not sure that I'm posting this in the right section of reddit. Please forgive if Im not. As the title says I'm having so many issues that are just killing me socially and emotionally. I just dont know what to do anymore and I'm to the point where I rather be dead that living this lie of false hope and happiness. Ok so as the title says I'm 24 going on 25 years old. I have social anxiety not to mention still a virgin. Please any advice would be helpful.

1st anxiety. So I've had this problem since 16. I always feel like someone is just watching every movement I make. Good example is on the city bus I just always feel like someone is talking about me whether it be about the way i dress or my hair or something along those lines. Another example is my car, My A/c is out right now so the windows are down. Now its natural to look at someone with their windows down, I understand that part because i do it. Now my anxiety kicks in and have no idea what to do at a stop light. I fell like all eyes are on me no matter how many times I tell myself they' re not. Its to the point where i rather suffer and row the windows back up in this hot as fuck texas heat. When it comes to work I'm always afraid fuck up on something so I always stay in my comfort zone and always ask if i did something right or how im doing knowing that Im doing well. Shit I just feel pathetic.

2nd problem is women. So as a kid I had girlfriends or what i thought was a girlfriend. At 15 years old I had a girlfriend which lasted about 3 months and was my last girlfriend sadly. We went on our first date, kissed and she even had the nerve to touch the penis......and then we broke up. We are still friends. Never asked her what I did wrong. Anyway the point of this is every since then I've had trouble with women. I mean i get looks here and there but never do anything about it. I talk a really big game as a joke but, I'm just a scared guy. I dont know how to approach women. I mean in my mind its just as easy as introducing yourself and asking if she would like to go out sometime,but then i start to wonder where would we go. I dont drink, I have really bad anxiety so how could someone have fun while feeling the pressure of that on top of being on a date with a stranger I'm trying to get to know. Sad.......I know.

3rd Body image. Ok What i look like. Im Hispanic 5'11 around 185 and i have pseudogynecomastia, Short black hair and glasses. Now I don't think I'm totally ugly but I honestly think with a little work i can be at least a 7.I havent been on soical media cause i just feel like i look the same so i dont even bother with a pic on facebook. Now the the Pseudogynecomastia is something that irritates me but what gets me is my Penis. Now its not the smallest but i wish it was just a bit bigger in terms of girth and maybe a bit in length. This is kind of preventing me from thinking I will be able to satisfying any kind of girl. which is another reason why I don't respond to any looks I may get. I also feel like i hunch over more then others which I'm trying to change. Im also trying to loose some weigh and pack on some muscle to help combat this body image issue.

please be kind I know there are bigger problems in the world. But at this point my family is watching my every move whether its socially or romantically and i know this for sure. ask any questions and ill be more then happy to answer. There is a lot more I left out but i have to go to work.