Bad time lately, but maybe starting T soon?

This last few weeks has just been a roller coaster. My mom sent me a highly transphobic article the other day, she pretends nothing's wrong, she told me a while back that she'll never call me by my preferred name or pronouns, and she still acts like everything's fine. Every time she addresses me online she starts off with "[birth name], I love you". Like that somehow justifies it.

Anyway, apart from that my antidepressants seem to maybe be doing their job, but I can't tell for sure. I started a new job recently and aside from being told that for legal reasons I'm supposed to use the restroom for my "original gender" it's been fine. (And I'm using the men's room, thanks.) However, thanks to that new job, I'll have the money in my budget to start T! I have a doctor's appointment this Wednesday and I'm going to tell my doctor I want to start T ASAP. She's been expecting that, and I'm really looking forward to it. I'm also growing out my hair because I miss ponytails, dammit.

This was completely incoherent. There's just been... there's just been a lot.