Lost my EDC pen.

I used to carry around my stainless steel parker jotter everywhere, in my back pocket. When I tried to look for it at home after I went out for a few hours, I couldn't find it. I frantically turned the entire house upside down but it was nowhere to be found. I weirdly felt shame as I ordered the exact same pen on amazon. How do you guys feel when you lose your prized EDC item?