Love, J.

 My eyes are heavy
 My body is aching
 My heart is broken
 And it's not fucking fair

 I know you like me back
 And to be honest, 
 I think we're meant to be
 We're not allowed to talk
 so we're not connected
 But in the short time I knew you
 I felt loved
 and, 
 for the first time
 I was happy 
 now I realize
 Happiness is temporary 
 and I'm meant to be sad

 My emotions are like a tidal wave
 I'm an unstable mess 
 but so were you

 You were the right person
 at the wrong time
 in the wrong place
 and 'cause I met you in a psych ward
 I don't have a say

 I liked everything about you
 Your adorable awkwardness 
 Your sweet, sweet smile
 You had such an honest way of speaking
 I could trust everything you say

 I'm trying to let go
 but I can't
 I can't get over you
 no matter what I do
 you left an imprint in my mind
 I don't think I'll ever forget you

 We didn't even get to kiss
 Only a silly hand-hug
 Because, "Boundries!"
 I still regret
 not staying longer
 I could've 
 but I went home instead
 I'd do anything
 literally anything
 just to see you again

  I miss you so much
  and It's eating me up
  from the inside out
  I'm an empty shell without you
  and it's just not the same

  Cutting doesn't work
  for a sadness this fucking deep
  I just want to bleed out
  It hurts so much
  that I can't even breathe
  I'm crying uncontrollably 
  and I know that's not a manly thing to say
  but It's true
  I'm hurt.

  Love, J.  

If you've never been to a psych hospital, you won't really understand a lot of the references. Please be brutally honest in your critique, I want to get better. Don't sugar code please.

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