Does he still have feelings for me? (32f/ 30m)

Things have been over between us for 1.5 years and they ended badly. When were friends & he was very emotionally distant, but he was always there for me. There were times where he hinted he wanted to date me but I was skeptical. I confronted him about his emotional distance and he said he'd change, but he wasn't sure what he wanted from me. He warned me that he got emotionally distant after sex but, I ended up seducing him 2x (whoops) after he started being really flaky.

One day I ran into him and he approached me :) as if nothing happened which pissed me off and I left angrily. After that he ghosted me for the most part & barely replied to texts. I tried to salvage the friendship by sending a platonic text telling him I missed our friendship and to please reply but he ignored it (I know he recieved my messages). This pushed me over the edge and I got really petty revenge (not illegal). He was really upset for awhile, I'd see him around town and he'd either look angry or :(

After 6 months I started to regret my actions so I reached out and he ignored me. A couple of weeks later I sent him a goodbye letter telling him I was sorry for the revenge and I explained my insane logic for getting it. I was really hurt and angry and wasn't thinking straight, that I never wanted to stop having him in my life, that I didn't know how to let it go and was upset for disrespecting myself so much as to pine over a man who ignored me. I closed in wishing him well and saying I had no regrets.

By the time he moved away when we saw each other he would :) at me or stare at me mirroring any + emotion or looking sad if I showed any negative emotion.

I recently saw him back in town, He looked at me and his eyes widened and he started to :). I was with a couple of friends and I tried to play it cool I tried to avoid eye contact with him and a few times he reached over to greet me and I quickly turned away. At one point I actually put my hand up motioning stop as he appeared to be leaving his seat towards me. When I got of the train he was slouching in his chair resting his arm over his face.

I caught him a few days later looking at me from across the room (and I looked awesome) but when I looked back he turned away. I have no intention of reaching out to him but seeing him has caused all these feelings to flood back and has left me wondering if he still has feelings for me.

If he were to start a conversation with me I’d try to be nonchalant and casual but I’m too upset to have a conversation with him and before a week ago he hadn’t even heard my voice in over a year. It would be too much to hear his voice and look into his eyes. I’m moving on overall, dating other people, getting my shit together, but I still love and miss him, I just wouldn’t want to risk getting hurt by him again. Or maybe I’m insane and he doesn’t give af about me. I’m just curious as to what the internet thinks.