I hate when people put me down for being different and it's really starting to bring me down.

I'll just flat out say that I'm not normal. I look and act different. I'm goth which right there gives people enough reason to stare at me. And stare. And not even pretend to look away. I am completely aware that if I look different than other people then people are going to look, I'm aware of that, but it still doesn't mean it's nice to stare wide eyed like I'm a freak or a monster. I make looner (I play with balloons) videos and foot fetish videos online. I enjoy doing this, it makes me happy and I earn money from it. Not a lot but enough to get by. I have so many people telling me I'm trash and an awful "single" mother (I'm not single). I've had people tell me to stop trying so hard, to stop trying to be edgy, calling me trashy, etc. I'm not doing ANYTHING to please or impress other people, I am simply doing what makes ME HAPPY. I am not hurting anyone. I pay my rent, I feed, take care of and love my child, I keep a clean apartment. Yes I don't look normal and I don't work a 9-5 but that does not make me a dead beat loser. I know I bug people with my eccentric attitude, I know I have a shit ton of energy, I know I act weird sometimes, but once again I am just being myself, I am not "acting" and I am not hurting anybody. I just needed to rant thank you for listening. I would just like to stress one more time, I know being different is going to attract unwanted attention but that does not mean it doesn't get to me, and I just needed to let this out somewhere.