First time

Hello, this is the first time I've posted something on Reddit, so it will be shitty.

I've known this girl for a year now since September, but my feelings started to kick in couple weeks ago (August). I told her I liked her in a very simple way after she failed to understand my 'language' multiple times. She said she liked me 'just as friend'. Now the question is, while I feel quite Friendzoned, why am I not feeling really bad about this? Is my mind still thinking about false hope after she said that? Or didn't I (still) have real feelings for her? It's the first time I've felt or atleast, thought, I had real feelings for someone. I used or possibly still am philophobic. Thanks for reading my post.

EDIT: Fixed some grammar mistakes.