I came across this sub about a little over a week ago and was on Day 8, then I relapsed today

Hey there nofap community. So as the title says I came across this sub about a week ago and looked into some of the materials and realized this is something I need in my life immediately.

A little background, I first discovered porn when I was 12 and am now 23. While I didn't PMO with this much frequency when I first found it, I would say that over the last 7 or so years I have looked at porn and masturbated 2-4 times a day, everyday.

In high school I was incredibly smart, motivated, and driven. I graduated in the top 10 of my class out of 500 people and went to a top 20 university in the US. Throughout college I went through some personal stuff and leaned more and more on PMO until it controlled my life.

I graduated with ~3.0 in engineering, which was fine, but I know I was capable of at least a 3.6 had I not spent so many nights blowing off homework, studying, and projects to look at porn and masturbate for hours on end. I had internships and now a full time job where my performance has suffered because I go to the bathroom during the work day to get my fix and thankfully I haven't been caught. However, my addiction has made me lazy and skirted around doing the bare minimum to getting the job done and not being a good teammate to other people on my team, which is something I need and want to change.

The biggest reason why I need this though, is that I have been dating an incredible girl for 4 years who is everything I want. She is beautiful, kind, smart, and makes me want to the best I can be for her. And my PMO addiction is hurting my relationship in 2 main ways. 1) She deserves better than me looking at random woman on the internet and pleasuring myself to them. 2) Our sex life should be amazing, but I don't enjoy it as much because of all the PMO I do without her.

So with all that being said, I planned on starting Standard Mode on Saturday 8/20. We actually hadn't had sex since before that date currently, because she was sick and then I caught what she had, so I had been 8 days PMO free, when the original plan was just PM free. The O coming from when we have sex.

However, things were going really well until about an hour ago when I saw a picture of a racy girl on social media which immediately got me to full attention.

While I refrained from looking at any porn or even the picture. I put my phone away and began fantasizing about sex with her and masturbated until I reached my O.

While I am disappointed in myself for relapsing, I am happy I at least refrained from looking at porn and was fantasizing about my girlfriend. But alas, I figured making an account on here would make me be more accountable. Oddly enough, for a 23 year old in engineering, I have surfed reddit for years, but never posted anything so here I am with this account.

Here's to being a better significant other, better employee, and overall better person in general!