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here it is again me dealing with a loss. another one. and again grief and sadness feel up my head and a stone seems to be glued on my chest. i seriously struggle to understand the reasons. none apparently. nothing wrong with me she says. just she is wondering about someone else and that is not fair to me. she cries when she tells me so. right there in front of her i try to make it light, easy like i am not being touched, i am nice, i say that it was nice until it lasted, that i ll miss her, that its life, that i had a sixth sense and felt it somehow.. she nods, she keeps crying I keep telling her that she doesnt have to be sad, that i ll remember the nice moments we had, at the same time i cant realize, i feel like i am watching a movie that when it is over i am not gonna be touched by it and my life will keep being like it was. she says that is better that she goes. i ask her ten more minutes like things would change like she would tell me it is a joke, she asks me if i have to say something, i am speechless, i smile like when i am embarrassed, i cannot believe what is happening, the stone on my chest becomes bigger, i hold it together it seems that for me everything is fine, she tells that is hard for her, she is full of thoughts, i ask her if that is me who did anything wrong she says no again nothing wrong she says that is why this is so hard. i dont wanna ask other details. i keep being nice i am conforting her i tell her everything is gonna be fine. she asks me to walk her to the door. she opens the door turns the light on in the stairs turns and looks for me... one last hug. no more i will talk to you later that is what i think while we are touching for the last time, then she pulls off looking at me almost like something is missing. no last kiss. she says something but i focus on her lips and i her words seems from another language which i cant understand i say bye she turns and goes down the stairs i close the door. numb. empty.

like the title says, please if anyone can be so kind to suggest me one. i really dont wanna fall in that dark corner, again.