[Acne] [Personal] [Rant] Hi all.... I'm starting to feel extremely discouraged and on the verge of just giving up.

I've never ever felt so insecure about my skin before. Here is a pic: https://imgur.com/a/g0Xws

It just looks oily, my pores are giant and I have little pimples and I just cannot believe how horrible it looks. Especially the enlarged pores.... How did that even happen, I didn't even have big pores on my cheeks until my benzoyl peroxide burnt me. I don't understand it. Why is my skin just not bouncing back to what it was?? I had really beautiful skin for 2 years, and I went on ONE vacation and it all went to hell. I'm so frustrated. I barely go outside anymore because I am so ashamed of my skins state. It looks like big fat holes are in it, and it isn't evenly toned and it's just looks horrendous. No one understands where I'm coming from AT ALL. My skin used to be so even and now it just looks bumpy and irritated.... I don't know what to do. I honestly am extremely depressed by it. I feel like this will last for my whole life.