I am not sure if it is oneitis because . . . .

It was reciprocal in the begining but I abandoned her because I never trusted her, she is beautiful, yes, but everything else is a mess and I always knew that but I am not able to get over that slut.

I dont regret doing that because after that she did a lot more bullshit on other people but I do regret to not be able to get over that shit.