I am jealous of other womens bodies and I don't know how to stop.

I am in my late teens and have never been normal weight. I am working on losing the weight despite obstacles (sprained ankle). As I get older I get more jealous of women with nice bodies. These feelings came back when I was shopping with a friend

We were at a store and she was trying on some sale clothes. There was nothing in my size at the store. While waiting for my friend be done, the employees looked at me as if they knew nothing in that store fit me. It was upsetting, but this hasn't been the first time.

These events and feeling invisible and sub-human has made me jealous, though I dont show it. I am a good student and have alot to offer in my personality. I just want my chance to bebeautiful and sexy, which I have never gotten a chance to be.