feeln blue

Been dankrupt for the better part of a month now. Usually I take my own t-breaks but its been the longest unintended one since I've moved. My dude is my friend, but the last 3 times I've asked to chill he's made up a reason not too on the day we were supposed to. I don't always pickup when we chill, in fact I usually pick up a half and am good for a bit and we would chill intermittently. Wish I knew what was up. I don't think he assumes I just want to pickup, but its been so long that I kinda feel the opposite where he might have just wanted a customer..idk, am I wrong to think that?