A girl [Relationship][Rant]

Throwaway cause reasons and sorry for bad grammar.

So there is this girl we can call her Amanda. Freshman year I had a crush on her but never asked her out. My crush is more than just the average crush on her. I have never felt this strongly about anyone. Sophomore year I asked her out at the start and she said no. Everything about that ordeal was cringy as fuck and I regret it so much. If i was her I would have rejected me too.

It is now Junior year (couple days in) and over the course sophomore year we have become really close friends. She had a boyfriend for like one week but they broke it off and I had a little thing going with this other girl but she said no after the first two dates. We have both been single since those two happenings. This girl is almost just like me. We like the same shit and have the same views on the world. We became close friends.

At the end of the year I began to develop a crush on her again. I had gotten over her but now its back. I knew I shouldnt have but I couldnt help it. We hung out a few times over the summer and it was great as ever. Im crushing on her so hard. Over some text conversation she said she is probably not wanting to date someone right now. But I of course still cant get over her. We have been snapchatting a lot all summer and have had the red heart on for a few weeks. She said that we should watch some movies (school assignment) toghether. What am I supposed to fucking do. I fell for a girl I shouldn't have and cant get over her no matter what.