Goodbye shittt ass world.
Posted Oct 1, 2016, 10:35 PM UTC
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u/broexist if you see this please PM me if your comfortable with a photo of your arm and a rough idea of your locale, might be able to get you some assist.
All the best
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Love this community.
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I'm concerned about OP, but this struck me for some reason. I'm sorry youre so uncomfortable with your body/skin. I can't imagine how hard it would be to feel that way. I know this probably seems stupid-but maybe a coverup tattoo in the future? Are you an artist? Have a friend that is? Maybe even one on here. It could be something positive to plan for--gettig a design, saving some cash. I know that last part is impossible for us here...I know some tattoo artists will donate services for things like this. Especially a case like yours that causes so much pain and turmoil. Also, and im sorry if this is also a dumb suggestion, but have you thought about talkin to a therapist about this? I'm a big advocate for counseling for everyone--i think what you're describing could really be something to explore. Sorry if that sounds hokey--it's my field, so it tends to be a soapbox. If you're not able to talk to a professional, Id be happy to chat if you're ever in a rough place. Hope you're doing okay. Parenting is tough under the best of circumstances. Add addiction and depression/suicidal thoughts, it's impossible sometimes. Sending some positive thoughts your way.
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Thanks.. I've talked to several different professionals but never real therapy sessions. I feel if I didn't have this arm problem I would be ok.. life's still rough sometimes and all that, but the anxiety in public and chance of being mistreated and judged is just too much
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This is textbook, man. I'm serious. If you can get in with someone, I really think it could help. You'd be amazed at how effective a good therapist can be. if you have insurance, you should be able to get in easily. If not, there are lots of resources for sliding scale services. Depending on your location, of course. I don't mean to sound preachy, but I hate to hear you feel like that and it's the best advice I have, fwiw.
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Couldn't you tat you arm straight black?
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Bro, stop hating yourself because of some mistakes. Just go get it tattooed over! You don't deserve to feel like crap for it. And if you don't think you can cover it up, then just black your whole arm out, it looks badass and how can you hate your arm if it's just a solid color, maybe even throw in some negative space symbols and lines. Anyway, it's up to you. I also have some tattoos that I did myself and regret, but I'm going to do something about them. I know how crappy it is, and how bad it feels, and embarrassing, but you can fix it!!!
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The depression and suicidal thoughts are what hurt us the most in this hell of a life we live.
I see that someone from the community is looking to help you with your tattoo and that could be a good first step to get you feeling better about yourself. After that the next step is getting clean and then staying clean. I'm rooting for you bro, your life will drastically increase in quality once you get through all this and you will have an amazing life with your daughter.
I'm also struggling with getting clean and depression/suicidal thoughts so if you want somebody to PM while you get through this difficult time I'm always around. We can get through this shit bro, I promise you.
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Motherfucker you just promised your girl that you guys where gonna make it. Please ducking respond you have so many people who care about you.... Reach out to literally anyone bro please.
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Need someone to talk to, bro? Seriously, don't do anything permanent.
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This post has me really worried.
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No PM to me either and I tried a few times. I'm worried as well. Can you let me know if he says something to you?
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any response yet?
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No. I feel sorry for the guy.
Not an opiate user, but I've been in the same position. If OP is reading this, life is tough. I'm not going to sugar coat it. It can be downright unbearable even. But its also very beautiful and very much worth the roller coaster ride.
I sincerely hope he gets in touch with someone.
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Where is his wife? u/miss_opiate
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In progress. Yes. ✌
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Don't do it. You can never take this decision away. I tried once and was found. The most shameful thing that ever happened. Do it for my bartarded ass.
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I have to go to prison. I'm norbrakmmmmmmmmmmñ
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I've been to prison. Its not that bad.
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Getting locked up and serving my state time probably saved my life honestly. I'd be dead if I had been able to keep using like I was at the time
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Lots of people do time and go on after to have good lives. Things can only improve after a certain point its your decision but you might as well wait just too see if things improve. You can never take this back.
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Please call 911. Or at least call someone who knows you locally to come check on you. You can make it through this. I imagine that you are going through hell right now and see hell in your future but you can make it through this. You may find yourself feeling surprised and lucky at your situation years from now. I'm sorry for your pain. I would hug you if I could.
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Does anyone's phone keyboard keep typing if the keys are still pressed during a nod? I don't think this could have been done on a computer: The ñ requires a very deliberate alt-164 on a keyboard. On a phone, just hold down and it gives the alternate n options.
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This comment reply scares me more than the title.
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you didn't have to do this.
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I know this is old and you've probably done it by now, but seriously prison isn't bad at all! Yeah, it sucks you can't use the computer and have privacy, but you'll make friends and your sleeping, if you've ever had problems, will be good as fuck with a prison schedule and lack of computers. Then it'll be over and you can go back to life. Fuck it'll probably be good for you, like chicken soup. Working out, playing cards, talking to people, and sleeping like a baby. Don't make this out like it's the end of the world.
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1-800-273-8255 This is the suicide hotline in U.S.A, whatever you're going through it gets better!
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If you actually want help, I can get you help. PM me.
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He's okay everyone, we're going through some rough times. But he's alive and well. We're getting help. (Wife Post)
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thanks for letting us know.
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Please use responsibly. Whatever is going on you can fixit nothing is worth a suicide man!
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Ah fuck, I don't know you, I mean I seen your name around and stuff, but don't fucking do this. There is another way. I don't know how much time you have left before going to prison, but surely you can taper down or something so you don't go through withdrawals, I mean, damn, this is your life we are talking about. You only get one life, no do-overs. It is the most valuable thing you own, by far, and without it there is nothing, not even the concept of oblivion. I mean, you aren't going to serve a life sentence, surely, so there is some sort of life to look forwards to after you get out, and most probably, it will be a good, long, and full life as long as you don't do something stupid to fuck it up. If it's not already too late. You have no idea what life has in store for you, and I know quite a few people who have quite envious lives even after felony convictions and prison sentences. What if you end up meeting someone? What will your grandchildren be like? How do you know that you don't have something important to accomplish, like saving someone's life? You have NO idea what is in store for you, and unless you live in a third world shithole, it's a pretty good bet that everything will work out fine in the end and you will be glad you didn't kill yourself. That is, if you haven't already killed yourself. Don't, if you haven't.
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This post just fucked brain. My last suicide attempt was done on the same damn blanket
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Rip
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Stamps, bars, pot, and what are the Orange pills?
And what does your cryptic ass title mean..?
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Weaker xanax
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As in Ativan... Or as in Xanax .5mg
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I think they're .25
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Yes, those are .25's. My dad gets them and I take 20 at a time once a month.
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Please don't man. It can get better.
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PM me if you need someone to talk to man
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Hey man! Seriously, there's many theories out there but as far as can be proven you only get one life. Don't squander that gift. Even if things are bleak now, everything happens for a reason. If you have a long sentence in front of you, just run. If you have a smaller sentence, use the opportunity to clean up and you'll prolly be amazed at what you can accomplish after.
You never know what tomorrow brings, but you can't find out unless you're here to see it. Be easy and don't do something you can't take back.
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World can be shit & I'm sure prison isn't great. I know lots that survive it and say better than jail. Don't do this. With prison time you get a do-over.
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Yo nods, think about all the times youve come on here and someones died. Dont do that shit to everyone, man.
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Please keep us updated man. Don't scare us like that. You are worth way more than that. Everything passes with time or a little hard work. If you really cant do it run, do things safely you can be a new person.
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Dude, I don't know you, but please don't. I agree, this is a shit ass world, but I'm sure you have some people that you care about that would be devastated if they didn't have you to at least call once in a while to help them through this shit world.
Waves man, life comes and goes in waves. Nothing is permanent. Except suicide..
You'll get through this.
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Dude I've been to prison on a drug charge, it's not like it is in the movies. Playing cards, coffee, and smokes man.. it's cake brother. I'll even write you. Trust me. And if ypu really cant do prison just hustle a few hundred and rum homie.. jet to San Diego or someplace where its warm and chill. The cops won't meaa wirh ya too hard and shit even better buy a fakeid off the DNM and become a new person.
Trust me, you can beat this.
This dudes helped a lot of people too on here.