Also in beta hell - or am I?

I don't even know where to start. It may be over tomorrow but I want to get it out of my system in case it works...(I really doubt it).

I have been through 8 MC's so far. I have a son(8/15) from a donor egg IVF cycle. The second embryo transfer resulted in a MMC. I don't really know what happened. I tested after IVF at hCG 4 and they told me to move on with life. Two month later it was still sitting 175 and they told me I had a miscarriage. Go figure. I also had 2 ectopics so I'm kinda glad it wasn't anything life threatening that wasn't monitored well.

Moving on to this cycle. Well, I am 39 and we have no funds for another donor IVF. I get pregnant after I sneeze so I ordered ovulation test kits(my period has been all over the place after stopping breastfeeding and the last MC). I wanted us to try one last time...just one more time. I wanted to start trying after New Years Eve because I wanted to have a couple of drinks this holiday season.

Something didn't seem right the day before NYE. I peed on a stick and there it is. A very dark line.

Called the OB went for Beta the next day. It was 1400 on 4w2d. That's a great start! Woo-hoo. I go in for another beta on Monday - 3 day later. I get a call from a compassionate nurse telling me that my beta is 2(WTF!!!) and asking me if I'm bleeding cramping and miscarrying. Well, no. I am not. And the pee stick is as dark as it was 3 days ago. So no, my beta is not 2. There is just no way.

I went in for a rhogam shot(I'm RH neg). Still the lady tries to be nice and gentle with me. Looking like a sad puppy. Seriously. I get it. Most woman are terrified by now, but I'm kinda a pro so I keep my face straight.

They took my hCG again that day(Tuesday). I get a call today. Keep taking progesterone, you beta went up, the OB will call you tomorrow.

I ask them about my level, they have no clue. No access to results. Seriously? Leaving me in the dark again?

I don't know what I want to achieve from this post. I just needed to get it out of my system. I am just mad that they made a lab error and that can't provide me with my results as soon as they get them.

I wish you all ladies happy and healthy pregnancies! maybe by some weird luck I will get to stick around! I am 5 weeks today!

TLDR: 4w2d - 1400, 4w5d - 2(WTF); 4w6d - it's raising(???)