When impossible love becomes improbable

Venting: Had strong feelings for a woman for years. "Well, she's not attracted to men and I've never been happy in a relationship anyway..." Shelved that. Barely thought about it. Just great friends.

Fast forward to now. Realised I'm a woman in November. I'm out to all my friends, on a waiting list for treatment.

Since then it's all bubbling back up. I kniw why every relationship has failed, I'm in this stupid, unfinished body and she's 1000 miles away...

I'll have to say something eventually for my own sanity. I dont think anything would destroy our friendship, but I imagine things are gonna be real awkward for a while.

Yes, there's that 1/1000000 chance. That wasn't there before. I kinda wish it wasn't right now. I could have left it on the shelf.

One more little thing to complicate the process.

I'm fine. Just... Sigh.