This is my time, and my final statement, i am at peace as you are reading this. Goodbye

started watching dramas.. more specifically love dramas.. love them, especially the emotional ones, i started "experiencing" real love, and it seems like real life love is so boring, therefore i have decided to stay virgin and never touch a woman until i die

expectations of love just jumped by over tenfold, and i am sad to realize that reality is too boring, the love you see in love dramas is never real, those surreal moments never happen in real life, its too imperfect, too impure, too boring, i think its also good, i will the forever alone guy, i will be looked as an outcast, whilst they are arguing about family problems at the age of 45 i will be at home sitting comfortably smoking, i will never have to deal with the disgust that is my partner having utter disgusting morning breath, i will never have to deal with my partner being stomach-sich or vomiting and smelling bad, or my partner failing in general life tasks such as forgetting the keys, i think this is a good future to be honest

no girl should be worth my time, this is my time leaving this sub, i have noticed i was born to be a general above the soldiers, i should embrace it, and not de-rank myself, this is reality, sitting at a restaurant meant to make as much money as possible and serving tens if not hundreds of people simultaneously and calling it romantic is just utter rubbish, uploading a picture with your partner whilst sitting in a car mass-produced to suit the world population is not romantic, living in a house built as efficiently and calculated as possible to fit as many people in a space is not life

i think this is the end of my inceldom, i bid farewell, love is insufficient in real life, i dont want to have a relationship with anyone anymore if it means i do the same boring things as people do in relationships, no feelings will be rewarding for the hassle, money, and pain to go with a girl to a restaurant, cinema, or "do" homework with her, i have opened my eyes and realized that this is all an illusion

there is no end to the pain, and this is a fraction of my thoughts and feelings, there is so much more i can not tell, love in real life is just too boring, there is no meaning to it, i wont sit as a 35 year old with a 6 year old son that makes my life a pure cancer, i wont go through the bullying phase in school, i wont ever look at a woman again more than necessary, this is the reality i have come to see, there is no end to this, and the truth made life much less miserable than i thought it to be, though.