Did not realize how much I needed a 'break'

After a few years of trying alone and more recently assisted I am currently in a 'break.' Did egg retrieval (IVF #1) last Monday (the day after christmas haha...) and now I am on birth control for another week before a FET cycle. This is weird... no crazy meds right now, no stupid blood work and vagina ultrasounds, no agonizing over every symptom, no guilt over having a beer, no wishing my period away.... I did not realize how much this crazy train has taken over my life until now haha... Enjoying this while I can!