I don't know what to do anymore with my life...

Hello, first of all sorry for the faults you could find in this post, english is not my maternal langage, moreover it's my first time coming here so if this post is not how it should please tell.

I'm posting here because since a few months I feel kind of lost and alone.

I'm currently 21 and a student depending on my parents.

My country educational being what it is I can't seek for financial autonomy (even if I find a part time job I'll still be considered at my parents charge) and I've been kind of misleaded into the classical formation in my field however it's not matching my actual projects.

Moreover my relation with my parents is really toxic, they want to know every single thing I'm up to and they still think I should'nt be allowed outside alone past nightfall because I'm a girl. This lead me to permantly lie so I could have a decent cultural and social life outside of my studies and week end at the family house (most of my activities are free or cheap so it's not even a financial problem, they just want me to stay home).

So here I am feeling like I'm loosing my time and tied down to people who are oppressing me. I feel like my only ways out are dropping everything and living a life of regrets or killing myself....

Did anyone here felt this way before, and if so how did you get out of it ?