Do I have a problem?

If you think you have a problem then you probably have a problem

Yes you have a problem

I agree that if you think there is an issue there, there probably is. However I would encourage you to research the difference between alcohol abuse, alcoholism, etc, meaning just because you think you might have an unhealthy relationship with alcohol doesn't mean you're an alcoholic. Regardless, any problem you think you have is something important and I'm proud you're asking questions.

Perhaps ask yourself why you want it around so much? Do you need it to sleep? Do you need it to curb anxieties, etc? If you take some part of your evening or afternoon to consider these questions you might stumble upon a moment of real self reflection.