Hey ampetamemes, On the serious, how much damage done?

TLDR: Probably just read this. I did oh 5 grams of meth in a month, but in fairness it was my first month using. I did doses up to 250mg, shot some questionable shit, and had a megarush 15 hours after my last dose. I think my brain leaked CSF through my sinus, ER told me meth psychosis and no they wont look, meth does lotsa crazy shit and go home. Had 2 psychotic eps, 2 times I had to cool brain with towel on head, and all the antineurotoxic things I could get my hands on. Take seroquel/lamictal/paxil (quit paxil when quitting meth, figured if I started the same time it was fitting) . So how much brain damage we talking, how long until I feel less brain damaged.

So for whatever reason, I take my drug use very seriously. Let's just say If I am going to inject it, I am going to be somewhere where if I fall, I'll be heard. "Oh taking a 250mg shot of cocaine for a wicked bellringer, better make sure you're close enough to the front door, so you can be outside where someone would see your bitch ass drop"

Not kidding I think I am why Narcotics are illegal for all the responsible IV Users. Anywho, I take 60-100mg dexedrine most days, M'ADHD is actually real.

I recently did crystal meth, and realized why my adhd med sucked and crystal meth was the answer. I bought a .9 bag, IV'd it because I'd never done crystal meth and thought it the best way to not fuck up the high. It was chill, 50-150mg injections, two days of those and I was sleeping on seroquel.

A week later I bought 1,75, decent enough. I shot that shit until psychosis, 4 days or so, slept err night with seroquel.

Bought 1.75, shot some, organ pain and fatigue, bad vibes. Tried again, more bad vibes. Waited a couple days, shot some, wicked pain stabbing where I imagine my liver and heart connect to my back. srsly speared. Threw away the .7g after doing a double acetone wash and still getting organ pain.

Ordered fire from amazon delivery, 2 grams. Did some, holy shit I sorta felt why people would cough. Felt like a little combustion and exhaust from my mouth. Maybe this was the good stuff and other meth was just bad. Did it for a couple days, took a day off. Friend came over, injected him with 150mg cause he didn't learn how to syringe. Had good vibes and wouldn't shut the fuck up. Did more, ORGN PAIN NO DOPAMINE, felt like shitty drug. Did bigger dose, no good vibe. Used vein recked from heroin 4 years ago, suspect it held onto drugs, because 15 hours after being done, BOOM EARS RINGING, TASTING LITERALLY THE LAST 3 Meth uses, and so on.

Anyways I maxed out at maybe 250mg, and took multivitamins, ate -something- most days, shit blood, went to the er twice, somehow not dead, and got out to finish off my spoils. Shot up everything in carpet, all the shards I missed or spilled on table. Filtered out MMJ Debris. Decided organs felt less comfortable agaiiin.

Decided before I end up retarded, I'll stop so If I want to be really reckless I can at least turn the lights off with dopamine left.

So my shit is whacky, I'm on the 5th day in bed, heart is better, but I did IV 4 dexedrine (3 micron filters trashed, two cotton balls fucked, and me deciding dexedrine is better rectally because that shit is seriously cut if its IR)

Uhm, I took lots of melatonin, fish oil, d3, smoked weed, and did every other neurotoxic thing in the book, minus CoQ10 cuz no have.

So I spent a month injecting like 5 grams of meth and taking guanfacine to lower blood pressure to shoot more, also was starting paxil and made sure to take my antiderpressants until I felt suicidal 4 days ago, lamictal also at 150mg, because fuck a seizure when you're trying to get high. JK It's for my mood.

Anywho, I was sick before I started mainlining meth, and am chronically ill regardless, needed energy to combat my fatigue, found meth to augment my psychosis and somehow spend an hour nervously preparing a shot I thought I would do quickly.

When should I expect to go back to feeling about as shitty as usual?

If I didn't notice my face drooping, or any serious difficulty beyond finding more meth to shoot, am I brain damaged? I kept cool and shit. I had to cover my head with a towel a lot to stop hyperthermia.

Also I rapidly got this pool of fluid above my forehead sinuses, was like sorta if you missed a shot of heroin and the body took it well. This was after my vein megarushed me with whatever the fuck it had been holding onto if thats possible, and I got 10/10 slammed after 15 hours since dosing. Idk if it was CSF fluid, but my ears are fucking whacky and I'm pretty sure I am leaking CSF fluid.

Can still do mental addition, shoot drugs, and type quickly. Am I permafucked ? How many IQ points does a month spent on 5 grams of meth really take? Is this worse than my 13 pill ecstacy binge at 16 that ended after 50 pills roughly? Cause that shit was unfortunate.