My first t-break starting today!

I only started consuming weed in November. It started out when my cousin offered me some of their weed cookies when we were talking about marijuana legalization being on the California ballot. I told him trying weed was on my bucket list, and he showed me the cookies his dad buys from a dispensary. That night was one of the most unforgettable nights of my life. I was couchlocked for six hours while I listened to my music with my headphones. It was paradise!

That night led me to get a med card, and at first I was pretty good at controlling myself. The fact that I was only eating edibles, which are pretty powerful, made me nervous to consume them more than once every two weeks. Soon though, I was breaking into my stash once every weekend, and then multiple times on weekends, and then on Wednesdays too to "hold me over" until the weekend. In mid January, curiosity got the best of me and I bought a disposable vape pen "just to see if I like it." I most definitely liked it. I liked it so much that I've been stoned at least once a day every day since mid January. And I'm to the point where I'm angry at myself for my lack of discipline and willpower.

My tolerance is going up fast. One puff of the vape pen used to get me to at least a 7, edibles used to make me fall asleep in a wonderful, dreamy haze after a few hours. Now it takes 4 or 5 puffs to get to the same point, and I actually stayed awake for the whole edible experience last weekend.

I want to lower my tolerance, and prove to myself that I don't need weed every night. I want it to be my reward on Friday after a long work week, not something I consume nightly. I came to the conclusion that I am consuming it every night out of boredom more than anything, so I've decided to make myself busier for a while. Instead of getting high, I'll go on a walk or hit the gym instead. If I don't want to exercise, I'll find a game to play or actually cook dinner rather than getting fast food. There's so many things I can do instead of getting high every night.

I plan on taking at least a 2 week t-break to reset myself. That takes me to my birthday. I'm hoping maybe I can get past my birthday and maybe even go on a month long t-break. I'm hoping the first time I eat an edible again is like the first few times, and after the t-break I can control my intake and limit it to just once or twice on weekends.

Wish me luck! I need some good vibes right now. :)

Edit: I made it through the first night! Went on a mile walk to my favorite burger place. Had a burger and then walked back home. By the time I got home I had no urge to break into my stash.