Idk where to post this. A friend from years ago was hit by a car and killed

My friend was ran over by a car and killed recently. They were really cool. They helped talk me through a lot of depression. I'm a 30 year old fairly normal guy. They were a couple of years younger than me, gender queer, punk rock feminist. When I met her she was this cute Asian girl that taught me a lot about accepting people's differences even if you don't understand them. They talked to me about my relationship problems and depression and drinking. I keep thinking of them laying there scared and dying and it's really fucking me up. I'm so sad right now.

I'm not really depressed. I just wanted to share about this beautiful person who helped me when I was. And thank you to the people on this subreddit who help people. I'm so sad. I have trouble crying. I'm trying to though. I feel it inside me.

I'm sorry if this is a rambling post idk what to do. I moved away from that town and don't really talk to many people who knew them.