Weed, Adderall and ADHD

I really hate taking Adderall for my ADHD sometimes. I feel like it takes away part of what makes me who I am. I feel sometimes like it turns me into a robot. I guess that's the idea since i'm kind of a shitty person without it but I feel like it drains some of my personality.

But I feel like when I smoke on my adderall it brings it back. I feel like I can still get my work done and focus on taking notes and lectures but I can also make jokes and talk to my friends.

I hate that I have to hide it because Adderall is the only reason I am able to pass my real classes and weed is the only way I feel like I can be myself.