Oh wait (weight)!

Mobile - rant, I guess?

I can't fucking believe that I have been able to live with myself at this weight. I'm so embarrassed to go in public/go to work... I realize it will take time for the weight to come off, but I can't WAIT for it... I'm restricting, EC, exercising... and I have still only lost 17 pounds in 3 weeks. I just can't believe I am in this situation... fuck zyprexa and thorazine (psych meds that contributed to my gaining 50 pounds).

Everyone in my life keeps telling me I'm going to gain it all back, that it's all water weight. Like I fucking hate everyone including myself.

Ugh this has no point and I'm sorry for taking up space I just don't know who else to turn to. UGH I HATE THIS SO MUCH.