I just need to know that I'm not the one being unfair.

My parents are going to let me start hormones under the condition that I go to family therapy with them. I have already been to family therapy with them twice, but stopped going because it wasn't helping.

I have already told them over and over again that I am not comfortable with being in a room full of adults who blame me for everything that goes wrong in our family, and will not go back because it is not helping me, and therefore not helping the family.

With that being said, they are clearly trying to use the hormone treatment as a way to blackmail me into going back to family therapy even though they know that I'm not comfortable with that in any way.

I'm pissed off because if I say no, they won't let me do the hormones which I've tried to explain to them is not something that can be given to me when I'm good, and taken away from me when I'm bad. It's a necessity for me to live a semi-happy, almost fully functioning life.

I'm just going to lie for now and say yes because I'm so goddamn close to finally getting what I want, but I'm still pissed off that they're trying to manipulate me like this. Maybe I'm just overreacting, or maybe they're actually wrong but I have no one on my side and everyone in my family is constantly telling me that I'm the problem.