Day 137

The greatest method of saving money is to not do drugs. Holy crap.

I'm just so thankful. I'm so thankful for my job. My opportunities. My family. I'm thankful I am able to finally fill my gas tank. I'm thankful to finally feel like I'm gaining some stability.

I haven't been on in a while. Thanks to everyone who checked in with me. I'm 137 days clean! I'm busting my ass as the lead CNA on a case. I'm da boss ;) Long hours, 60 hours a week. Set schedule. But last week I clocked in an exhausting 80 hours.

I haven't thought about getting high in weeks. No triggers, no cravings, no temptation. Preoccupying your mind truly helps.

Back in the day my happiest moments of joy and bliss were when I picked up. I feel that joy everyday clean. I've noticed less and less PAWS symptoms. :knock on wood: I feel like I'm over the hill. I refuse to get cocky. I refuse to ease up. This is the life I want and I absolutely refuse to give it up.

I hope everyone is doing well. I wanted to write a long entry but I'm so tired. Ill be on tomorrow and will update soon.

Love you guys