Ego Expression

Hi, again a post was made before from me about trying to fix my core self and Becoming something that can help versus see destroy. two members provided some answers, so thank you for that, it has been decided that I will try Microdosing small on shrooms or L. MDMA is on pause as a friend provided the before mentioned as they don't like what I've been doing to myself. Anyway the reason I am here again is I was informed that L is an ego drug, which would would be a problem(a false delusion which would put me inside my head are the words). I would like to know what exactly is an ego drug and in regards to helping myself, would Shrooms really be better? I understand that subtances affect users different, but some insight if any would be great, thank you again in advance for any information provided.