Girlfriend Just Died Yesterday

What can I say? I'm in shock. It hasn't even been 24 hours yet and I still don't know what to think about it all. My girl, the love of my life died at 24.

I'm 21, I've always been an agnostic doubter about what happens after death.

But now, I find myself wanting to belive I'm wrong. (maybe it's my Episcopalian upbringing).

Obviously, all of us don't know the answer to the question of 'is there an afterlife when we die?' but how do you all deal with the death of a loved one when you believe there's probably nothing after this?