13 Roses

I got 13 roses for Valentines Day 7 pink 6 red. The card was unsigned and said 'with all my love'. I didn't think it was my bf, currently across the country, we traded a game of emojis earlier on that day and it isnt his style.

I called the florist. It was nmum, with whom I have been nc with for more than a year. I threw the flowers out but feel invaded, very creeped out, and now embarrassed at having to talk about or get past the last emoji I sent to him of 13 roses and a question mark, to which he didnt respond. He has been a wonderful support through a difficult time with me for a year and now dealing with his own family problems. I will tell him about this eventually.

I am just venting here. I am putting up with a personal visitation from her, after being harrased by phone a couple of times a week for many months because I could not change my phone number easily. ( on a transplant waiting list and hospital private numbers are unlisted). I changed it when i got out of hospital for the transplant.There is a previous post about the visit. Ive torn up letters, unread, deleted voicemails after the first two words and hid in the bathroom with her knocking and calling to me through my door. I propose to be a black hole rather than take futher action because she is 90 and I need to lower my blood pressure.

Im venting basically. I don't feel inclined to contact her but if I did, my question would be " why , after spending most of your life nagging and pushing me to get what you want, do you think it would ever work for getting someone to talk to you who clearly doesn't? She's never going to change.