Would anyone be willing to just talk for a while?

I have known I have been trans for about a year or so now. I had thoughts before; but it is just solidified now. I have only come out to a few of my best and most LGBT cool friends, and they have been good about it. I don't know if this is stupid or not; but they didn't have like any reaction at all and it makes me feel weird. I suppose it is nice because they support me, but at the same time it feels like they are actually actively DISINTERESTED in it.

Unrelated to being trans, I have had a very difficult few months since this past October. I was hit by a drunk driver and almost died. Ever since this happened I have been getting more and more depressed every single day. I am not going to kill myself (mostly out of cowardess), but I wake up every day just entirely hating myself. I have been doing too many drugs as a way to cope and I want to be happy, but my best friend left to go backpacking in South America and I am not in my home state so I lack any good friends here.

I am just really sad right now. About so much. I have no one to talk to, and I feel like I will never be who I want to be. It would mean the world to me if someone would just be my friend. I am crying so much without any idea of what to do. Thanks, and sorry this isn't much of a question.