I hate my body.

I was 460 pounds in December. God has blessed me to lose 43 pounds in January. Now I am 427. But I am lonely inside and really hate to look myself in the mirror. I am fat and I do believe that no one will ever love me. Yet, I am in a sexless marriage. It doesn't mean that I don't think about it, though. I still hate the way I look and how much I need companionship and physical love. But I really feel Deep down inside that I can never escape this loneliness. I can never love comfortably in my own skin.