Realized there is more to fainting than losing consciousness.

Sitting there, stunned, at what i just experienced.

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A movie just ended, we just watched a thought provoking movie. My mind is rushing, trying to connect the dots. Realizing that if i am having trouble understanding my family and friends will definitely not see the bigger picture i quickly rush to stand up and tell them the meaning to it all. I am speaking...but then i hear myself speaking....?

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I lose consciousness, the act of standing up this quickly and being this excited after being seated for so long caused a shutdown of everything in body except my mind, though it was a mere second(s) it was long enough to understand the nature of the transition.

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I could still hear my words as if spoken from another person, hearing noise through a wall, noise quickly diminishing, falling backwards into the chair. I realized that my mind was still there, with no time constraint. My body on the other hand was still falling, darkness enveloped my vision, yet i saw clearer than i have ever before. What i thought was needed for seeing was totally replaced with a insight and understanding of what was there, i didn't need to see the physical world, i knew the world so well that i didn't need to see it. It was a strange sensation.

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Where i rendered action with time, my mind corrected to me, showed me that it only renders existence above time, being able to be there, having no need for a physical body to function. Retreating further into myself while fainting, eager to learn more, trying to understand why it felt so natural, being in this box. I could see it clearly, time around my body, a fake understanding of forward movement. I was looking at time the same way i was seeing my body, stuck in that Jello fluid. If time around me was not moving forward, how was i still able to think and use my mind in this way here?

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Yet, clearly here in my mindfulness and eagerness to understand, i accidentally stumbled upon something that to me seemed like i discovered a city of gold, a secret, a treasure. Something that felt strangely like home but a better version of home.

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Then, as suddenly as it came upon me it left.

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I was speechless, sitting there, trying to act normal, not look like i have seen a ghost, i realized that all the people around me already left the room.

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The light was on, no more darkness.

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As my body took over my mind again, i could feel the sensations weighing my mind, putting it back in prison, i did not want to let it go, yet fearfulness crept back, and i gave in. Time went from pause to play again. :/

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Now my question here, is it okay to induce faintness to go into this world and explore more? Or is there a danger here that i should be weary about?

If you read this and you see something here that you understand better than i do, please tell me about it, i just experienced the most amazing moment in my life, and i have lived quite a few years already. I want to experience this more. I want understand and go back to that moment again really badly.

Thanks, DeerSpotter