Another breakthrough attempt, similar results. Advice?
Hi, so lately I've been trying for a breakthrough. I've had numerous low dose DMT trials, and I'm done with those. Having not had a breathtaking, breakthrough experience like others report, I've been trying higher doses seeking that out.
So far I've had two that were distinctly powerful, this last one being 50mg in a bong. I have no idea if it was a breakthrough though, since I cannot remember very much of either of them. I remember vaguely that a couple moments seemed rather realistic. But I haven't ever experienced any of the other stuff found in any of the experience reports I've read - no chrysanthemum, no waiting room, no entities, etc.
Now, I know everyone has their own trips and they aren't all the same. But without seeing any common themes and without the ability to recall much about the trip, I just have no idea if I've broke through. It's just like a dream. So I'm a little disappointed with DMT right now. I'd like to have some impactful trips like others report, or at least be able to remember what I experience. But as it is, the memory loss and dreaminess of it are kind of a turn off.
Does it get better? I thought my recall was supposed to improve as I got more experience with the substance. Should I dose higher?
Posted Feb 23, 2017, 4:19 PM UTC
I does get better, I promise you!
DMT can be...elusive to some. There's countless reports on The Nexus of experienced user who find Hyperspace inexplicably "closed" for some time.
I went through a patch where I honestly believed I was immune to breaking through. I almost gave up. Turns out it was just bad smoking technique, which I thought I had beat.
As for magic and elves and the like, I don't experience that the way others have reported either. I DO experience "entities" in a much more psychological and telepathic kind of way. It's very, very strange and alien feeling.
There was another thread where someone described DMT as "returning to The Source". This resonated with me... I feel a deep connection to the universe when I indulge in The Spice.
Thank you for the reassuring words! Good to hear that I'm not some anomaly. I'm excited and open to experiencing entities in any way. I've found that on shrooms I feel a strong connection to the earth, and at least appreciative of nature on other psychedelics. DMT hasn't given me this yet. It does give me the strange, weird feeling though.
I forgot to mention in my original post, but many of my trips end up with me leaning forward, head in hands, breathing very heavily (not particularly rapidly, just deep and heavy). Does this sound right? I realize I should either sit fully up or lay back instead, but the breathing part just kind of concerns me.
Do you think I should continue to try to break through, by refining my smoking techinque? Or perhaps taking a longer break would be beneficial?
For me, it was technique... Though I really didn't believe it at the time. I really thought I was doing it right. My spice was a little underwhelming too.
I bought a vapor genie, made a fresh extraction and it was like a totally different drug.
I always journey sitting up, usually with a back/head rest. Sometimes I'll sit cross legged on a mat, but I don't like having to worry about balance too much.
My breathing gets very deep, and slow too. I think it's pretty normal, but since I only journey alone I don't have any reference other than my own experience.