Starting to slip

Having the thoughts of maybe I could drink only when Im out which is hardly ever. I could drink on special occasions. Just dont have any booze in the house. I know these thoughts are tricks but now Im over the phsyical and emotional turmoil quitting had its easier to look back at alcohol through rose tinted glasses. I know if I did I will end up back where I started but everyone on here knows they cant drink responsibly dosnt mean Im not thinking about it. Im not going to drink with you guys today