Mum is legit the least supporting and understanding individual ever...

WARNING: NO TLDR BECAUSE IM VERY EMOTIONAL RIGHT NOW AND IT WAS VERY HARD TO SAY THIS, hope mods understand

I'm 17 and on 50mg of Methalthenydate. I've always wanted to come off the meds when im older, when i get a proper job. I had a talk with my mum about this and she legit said "SO you'll lose your job, you can't function normally without your meds, how will you live a normal life". later on she then said "That without my meds i laugh over stupid things, act silly and make stupid noises?". She told me "I need them"

When im off my rTabelts I'll admit i laugh alot, but thats only when im really happy and giddy, i tend to be more succeptable to laughter. I also like to joke alot so i put on voices with my friends, they also do the same, we have fun :). BUt when im in that mood my mum says i "Smile like a Cheshire cat" and make Dinlo noises. She also says i can not control my anger without meds and that if i came off them I would need to take anxiety meds.

I've never felt so disappointed, upset, depressed, de-motivated, empty and just all around angry with myself and someone in my entire life. She seems to not care about my view. She is the 1 person who doesn't want me to come off my meds and doesn't encourage me to achieve my dream.

I really can't do a TL;DR right now, too emotional i needed to rant....

I also told her i struggle to actually Do college work, I explained i intend to do it, but simply can't get myself to do it. I explained...But she replied with the usual alsmot ignorant answer of "Well sit down and do it? set an alarm. And instead of going onto the Computer to play games just do the assignment work" I tried explaining its not like that, but she just doesn't get it.

Please i need this community right now! i need your support :'(