Recent realization, thinking ahead, need advice

So, I'm a 19 year old AMAB, and I recently realized that I don't really feel strongly male, but I also don't feel strongly female, which, after some internet research and talking to some of my best friends, led to me realizing that I'm genderfluid. I know that my parents will definitely not accept that, due to them being the type of Christians that feel like anything that is out of the ordinary gender and sexuality is worshipping Satan, so I will not tell them, and they're also moving overseas after I finish college. Through talking to some of my friends, I also realized that I might want to present as more feminine as well. Should I be thinking of getting HRT and bind when I want to feel more masculine, or is it better to get breast forms?

EDIT: I realized that the way I'm phrasing the question makes it seem like I'm only considering HRT for the Aesthetics(TM), but that's only one of the many reasons that I am thinking about it. The main purpose of this is to gather information from those of you who are/were on HRT, and your experiences, so that I can have an easier decision when the time comes.