Anyone cuddle their imaginary BF to sleep every night?

Lol this is cringe. I was exclusively just in to dudes in a physical manner for years, last year I started liking them emotionally too and admitted to myself I was only interested in guys. I'm back home in a rural area to help out with family things and there is no guys here.

So lately at night when I'm trying to sleep I picture myself in bed on my back with left arm spread across, some random dude lays down and puts his face in to my chest and I close my arms up to wrap around him, we lock legs a bit then I kiss him on the top of his head and fall asleep.

Lmao its so cringe when I put it in to words, I'm happy I'm at this stage now, I used to cum and run and be disgusted with myself(Sad but true). Pretty soon I can move back to the city and make it a reality instead of a fantasy.