14/f Just Need Support!

(Note: I posted pretty much this same post on r/raisedbynarcissists, with a bit added as it applies here)

Hi guys. So I'm posting from a side account to avoid any creeps that may see my post content or like anything that can get traced back if like anyone I know sees my main account or anything.

First, I'm a female teenager. Yes, I'm a minor. I live with my dad and stepmom, who are both from the south, but we don't live in the south currently.

They don't let me go out of do anything, they homeschool me and really don't allow me to have any friends besides the kids of people they go to church with. They have insane amounts of rules and expectations. I have a bedtime, have to keep my room and the house spotless, can't swear or have attitude of any kind, and can't get any grade lower than an A on anything.

I'm expected to do exactly what they say as soon as they say it or I'm disciplined. And I'm talking physical discipline. I tried to call CPS but they refused to do anything because they said it wasn't illegal.

I'm sad all the time and anxious and I know I'm depressed but haven't been able to get a formal diagnosis. I just don't know what to do.

I'd be willing to talk more about this all in private, because last thing I want is for them to somehow see this and make it worse for me.

I really am fun too, I promise. I just need some friends. I need someone, anyone, to be there for me.