For Her Part 204

Time for another update. I still feel anxious, haven't talked to Her much today. She is in our room reading as far as I can tell. I will try not to dwell on that though. There is a UFC card later today and I am excited about that! I also have been reading little bit more of The Dark Tower series and watching Better Call Saul. I also might have to watch the first episode of Twin Peaks today because I want to see how it all starts. I don't know if I will log calories today, we will have to see. Anyways, I just need to stay happy and positive today. No point in being sad and worrying about unknown things, right? Time for an update. Today has been bad. I tried talking to Her a bit, small talk mostly, but She seems kind of drawn into Herself and sad. Idk what to do about it. She seems like She wants to be left alone as She has just been in a different room all day but I don't know. And I feel anxious and sad most of the day too I would say so I don't know what to do. I watched a lot of things that I usually enjoy today but haven't gotten much enjoyment out of them. I don't even feel super excited for this UFC card even though my favorite fighter is fighting, idk, maybe I'll get excited when that fight starts. I just want Her and I to be happy. I worry that we will never be in a place in our relationship where we are 100% happy and healthy. But I love Her so much and want Her to have the world. Idk, time to superman and watch these fights and NLSS inbetween. At least that is funny.