Going crazy.. I feel like I need to confront him

Hey there!

I left an abusive relationship almost 2 years ago... I was with him for 12 years (from 16yo to 28 yo and he was 22 yo to 35yo). He isolated me from my family and friends. He made sure I had no social life, not even when I was attending college and university. He was very controlling. He was very mean to me. Every project or hobby that I started wasn't good enough, smart or useful. Everytime I tried to so something for me he made me feel guilty. I'm a teacher and he even told me I didn't have a real job. Even sexually he made me feel guilty that I couldn't have an orgasm and he told me everytime that it was my fault he came so quickly. He compared me with his exes because they had more libido and could have orgasm everytime with him doing NOTHING. WHAT A MIRACLE!!!!

I feel like I have to confront him in some way to feel better and to move on from the demons of the past. I'm trying to build up my self esteem, but sometimes I still hear him in my head. I wasn't aware of it at the start. Now I am. I know it wasn't the truth. So here is what I have to say to that verbally abusive ex :

You destroyed me and I'll never let anyone lack me respect like that ever. I'll be stronger than ever. You're not the master of me. You're not a God. I don't owe you anything. You made sure to be with a naive and young girl that had no experience. You never considered me as a human person, I was your object and property. This is not the right way to treat a woman. We're in 2017, women work and get paid as much as men. I worked 30 hours a week when I was in college to pay half of every fucking bill we had. Stop being a misogynist. No woman will ever be able to live with a man with no respect for them. Nowadays, men have to work and do dishes, the laundry and cleanup after themselves. As much as women do.

By the way, my clitoris doesn't have a problem and neither have I. Being treated like an equal and touching me in an appropriate way helps me alot with my libido. And God, I had to wait until I was 28 to finally have an orgasm but it was worth the wait. Yep, everything down there is working the right way! I just had to find a man who loves to pleasure me as much as I love giving him pleasure.

I hope the cats are doing okay. Angus and Bibi are going great, although the hypoallergenic food costs is pretty high. I think Bibi is starting to have dementia, bit she's still in a good shape. I'm scared of when I'll have to take the decision to go to the vet and I hope it's going to be in a very long time.

Thanks for letting me vent, it's taking off a load of my shoulders! :)