We really are too good for our Narc ex

I spent the whole relationship and weeks after the breakup feeling like my ex was "better" than me in some way...more sexually desirable, more valuable as a person, whatever. I felt like I "deserved" to be treated poorly because she was better than me...I felt I was paying the price of admission for sharing the company of such a grand partner. I was lucky enough to be along for the ride, and I got off the ride because I couldn't "handle" her, I was too weak, too much of a pushover, etc.

Today I realized that she's not better than me. That's just something she convinced me of and I convinced myself of throughout the course of the sick relationship. In fact, at this point in her life, she is a shitty person, and shitty people deserve to be with other shitty people...not people like us who are kind and loving and respectful.