I woke up at 6 AM [NAW]

I woke up at 6 AM. And I am truly surprised that I did. Last night was one of the hardest nights of my life, with throwaway accounts being made, notes to loved ones being written, and pills being swallowed. Despite my best efforts, I still woke up today.

I'm not sure how long this relief will last, but rereading what I wrote last night, all of those words felt empty and purposeless considering what they were going to have to explain the next morning. I'm keeping the note as a reminder of what could've been, but luckily isn't.

But here I am, dividing my life in two portions- the night I gave up on living, and the day I will try to live again. Despite my best efforts, I still woke up today. For now, I'm glad that I did.