i got drunk and then bitter

ughhhh, i drank a bit, and felt pretty decent. i decided to go out to buy some snacks. i saw some people with their graduation hats (all the graduation ceremonies happen around today, a couple days +/-) and started to feel super bitter for some reason. i guess because i'm very much a hermit and don't have many life experiences. i ran a fork across my forearm. i hadn't hurt myself visibly in almost half a year. i feel way less frustrated, but i wish i hadn't done that.