Need some help

So guys I'm gonna make a long story short and simple, I started at 450lbs. I got all the way down to 308lbs, but I've been stress eating because I've had 10 soon to be 11 surgeries over 2 years and its caused me to nearly psychotically break. What I need is yall to fat shame me so I can start losing weight again and not feel like a failure. http://imgur.com/a/C7vQK there are some pictures of me.