21/R feeling like an alien

I'm just gonna go straight into it. I don't fit in well with people. I have friends but I'm not close to any of them. I do have a SO and I am very happy with them but the circumstances we are in make the relationship hard and I feel alone most of the time. I don't have anybody to turn to and talk to about my feelings except for them, and it sucks a lot.

What I'm looking for is this: basically a strictly platonic thing, somebody I can talk to without having to hold anything back, somebody who wont judge me when I talk about shit that bothers me, somebody who can listen and be serious/jokey at the right times. In return I will definitely do the same, or at least try my best to. I want someone that I can talk about all sorts of shit with: serious, happy, random, sad, deep, sciencey, hobbies, blah blah. I do have to say I'm a bit of a boring person but I'm working on that and I hope to not be boring.

I know that may be a lot to ask, but I have a lot of emotional baggage and I just honestly want a person who I can talk to about anything, and who can talk to me about anything. It doesn't even have to be long term if you don't want it to be (although that'd be nice).

I guess I should say what some of my interests are just so yours and mine don't clash too hard (i definitely respect everyone's opinions and interests and shit but i'd like to not come across people with completely opposing views kinda kills the vibe tbh):

• Music: Eminem and The Weeknd as of right now. More the latter. But I drift in and out of music phases often, and I've liked different artists/bands in the past and will most likely like different artists/bands in the future but that's who I'm obsessed with now.

• Gaming: I'm away from my PC and can't game at the moment (for a couple more months) but I'm crazy about Rocket League and Mass Effect. I've played some like Assassins Creed, Life is strange, Civ 5, Portal. I'm not a huge gamer though.

• Hobbies: I suck at every one of my hobbies but I like drawing and hope to not suck at it, I like writing, and watching documentaries. I've watched some TV shows in the past but I haven't in a long time, and I'm not big on movies either.

• Others: I like science more than art, I'm currently in university, I have major mood swings, I like cute animals (pls send me gifs of cute animals), I'm really lame, I'll be awkward for a bit before I can get comfortable, and sometimes my messaging won't be consistent.

So I definitely feel like listing down all that will put people off even more haha but whatever it's worth a shot. I'll stop here, hope y'all are doing great and if you feel like we'd get along or you wanna find out more just shoot that pm my way dawg. thanks for reading