Hit a wall

Sorry this may be a bit of a ramble. I just feel like I need to speak out and be as open and honest as possible. A lot of what I'm going to say may be unsavory.

I admit that I have a problem. Not just with porn but an addiction to sex. I am in a relationship with someone that I love very much, and I fear that my habits are going to ruin things.

I have been pretty good, not fapping/watching porn too much. I recently went on what I call a bender and have only been off it a day or so.

My girlfriend and I attempted to have sex last night and I couldn't stay erect. Tbis hasn't really happened to us, as I'm usually rock solid the whole time for her.

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My porn use involved "normal" things like models and animated gifs of sex, then escalated to more taboo themes like cheating and incest. I also rode around in the city a bit trying to find pretty girls and took a picture of some with my cell phone.

It seems like no big deal at the time, but after awhile I feel the remorse. It seems that I chase excitement and when I burn out I feel empty and guilty.

I do think the porn plays a big part in re-enforcing the more sexually deviant parts of my mind, which I think our quite normal.. to have the thoughts at least.

Sorry if this post seems pointless to anybody, I just felt like I needed to confess in a way. It is weighing pretty heavy on my mind and I just feel like crying.

If anybody can relate, please feel free to chime in. I may also be going to a sex recovery meeting soon.