Just needed to rant...

Hi.

If I have to put labels on myself, I have panic disorder, agoraphobia, and major depression. I'm currently ok, I could be doing better, but I'm grateful for where I am now.

My parents are super conservative and abusive and I can't afford to stay home any longer. I'm agnostic and that's not acceptable to them.

I plan on going to university this fall, but I'm really worried that my anxiety will kick back in and mess me up so bad that I have no choice to return home and live my days in that house until I'm arranged a marriage.

I get anxious over the stupidest of things, like walking, increasing my heart rate, being dizzy, being too hot or too cold (basically afraid of being afraid, scared of panic attacks.) But I can't afford avoiding these "threats" forever. I have faced them already and will keep doing so. I'm just really worried I'll mess up like I did in highschool. (I ended up having to leave in the beginning of my junior year solely because of my stupid panic attacks.)

I really do hope things work out for me, thank you.