I'm so fucking frustrated.

It's nearly four in the goddamn morning and I'm in so much pain that I can't sleep.

My hips feel like they're a mix of being on fire, being crushed, and being beaten with a hammer. As we speak, it's spreading to my knees, my ankles, my back, and my wrists. I'm staring at the ceiling to the point of tears rolling around in my bed trying to find a position that helps, and nothing does. I feel like I'm fucking dying. It's been a long time since I felt this much pain. I don't even know what to do anymore.

I needed to let that out. I hope all of you are feeling better than I am today.